'Not Asking Why Anymore

i know that thinking of you
is a harmless and innocent enough
thing for me to do, but
that doesn't make it any less tough
when i imagine your laughing kindness
or the tender expression of your eyes.
i know it's ok to wonder idly what's between us
and whether it's more or less than we realize.
i catch myself sometimes
trying to make sense and understand
the meaning of our so-called crimes
when all that matters is calling you friend.
i know this will be ok because it just feels right.
i'm learning to hope, and i know that deep down
we're both armed and ready for this fight
the sad flutter of our hearts won't make a sound.
it's easiest when i stop thinking
when i let go and simply feel
it's in those moments i feel i am linking
up somehow with something very real'